This blog is for people who feel overlooked and invisible. It offers inspiration and encouragement for people who have physical and mental disabilities and chronic illness, as well as caregivers and family members.
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Fear
Wednesday, May 24, 2023
kaleidoscope
I love kaleidoscopes. They are such simple toys, made of a cardboard or metal tubes, an opaque lens and colorful pieces of glass or plastic. When you hold the lens up to the light, you can see the colored pieces for a shape Twisting the tube just a bit shifts the colored pieces and completely changes the pattern. It can be mesmerizing to watch the colors and shapes change and can keep a child, or an adult, entertained. The image depends on the position the pieces are in.
I have discovered something in the last few weeks. What we see in life depends on our viewpoint. One small change in our perspective can completely change what we know and understand. For example, I had an experience the other day when I was complaining about a situation that occurred often when I was growing up. My husband saw the situation from a different perspective and shared with me what he saw. I felt like my memory shifted like the pieces in the kaleidoscope. Things that had made no sense to me suddenly became clear. I could see more clearly why I reacted the way I did. Old resentments and jealousy were shown in a different light, and have become easier to overcome.
The Bible tells us in Isaiah 55, “Thus says the Lord. My ways are not your ways. Neither are my thoughts your thoughts. As the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."We think things should work one way but they don't work out that way. There is a country song that says, "Some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers." I am not saying that we should use country songs to dictate our theology, but the sentiment does support what we read in this verse.
Loook at this beautiful verse from Isaiah 46.
9Remember what happened long ago,
for I am God, and there is no other;
I am God, and there is none like Me.
10I declare the end from the beginning,
and ancient times from what is still to come.
I say, ‘My purpose will stand,
and all My good pleasure I will accomplish.
Not only does God see things that we can't but he sees it in the context of eternity. We look at what is happening right now and can't understand.
Saturday, November 12, 2022
There is no limit to the places we can find lessons for our
spiritual lives. Believe it or not, the inspiration for today’s lesson came
from THE PRICE IS RIGHT. The item up for bid was a diamond necklace. Contestants
were bidding between $750 and $1000. The “actual retail price” was $3025. I was
impressed not only by the value of the necklace but by how people undervalued
it. Diamonds are used in many industries including automotive and medicine
because they are excellent for cutting and polishing. However they have value
apart from what they can do. Ultimately, the value of something is based on
what someone is willing to pay for it.
I realized as I thought about this that the same is true
for us as Christians. I admit that have received my value based on performance
and what I could do for God or others. Growing up, that was how I got
validation. In school, church and often at home, that was how I got attention
and approval. I accomplished things and I succeeded. I have shared before that
I loved the gold stars and happy faces on papers and Sunday school charts. I
did not learn about grace until much later and it was actually a difficult
concept for me. My acceptance and God’s love for me was outside of anything I
did or could do. It was because God chose to pay the price for my redemption. I
had value to Him outside or what I could do or accomplish.
Isaiah 43:4 has become one of my life verses. “Since you are precious in my sight, since you are honored and I love you, I will give other people in your place and other nations in exchange for your life.
Look at John 15:16.
Jesus tells his disciples, “You did not choose me, but I chose you and
appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should
abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you.”
In
the beautiful passage in Romans 8, Paul tells us …31What then shall we say in response to these things? If God is
for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare His own Son but gave Him up for us all, how will He not also, along with Him, freely give us all things?
I
am by no means saying not to do things to glorify God or to help his people. I
am merely saying that our value is not defined by what we accomplish but in
what he was willing to do for us. The world and even people we love will
sometimes undervalue us, like the diamond necklace. God gave up his most
precious possession to purchase us. May we stand in that value this week.A
Thursday, June 16, 2022
ABIDE
Abide
When I was about 13 we went to a Navajo reservation to hold a Vacation Bible School. It was a world like nothing I had ever seen. The hogans looked pieced together but they were sturdy and comfortable on the inside. The chapter house had beautiful handmade crafts, offices, meeting rooms and a shower facility. The men built a brush arbor while we watched amazed at the transformation.
We had Vacation Bible School in the morning and Gospel Meeting at night. Afterwards we ate fabulous food that we had never had, including fresh fry bread. The afternoons were reserved for fun. There were impromptu games and hikes. That was the summer I discovered Agatha Christie. I would hike a little way from where the campsite was and sit in on of the shallow caves to read. One day as I was hiking, I saw a fox den with 2 kits inside. We watched each other in silence. They were completely unconcerned. They were sheltered from the sun and mama was undoubtedly nearby and would come running at the slightest yip.
In our Christian lives, although we trust God we feel the
need to rush around and figure out a backup plan in case he doesn’t come
through. ( Maybe that is just me.) Scripture tells us to Abide in him. Abide
means to remain stable or
fixed in a state. Like the fox
kits we need to be stable and fixed in our trust that God is a good father and
will come at our call. Life does not always look like that but we have the
assurance that it is true.
Look at this beautiful verse that I found about abiding in God. He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty. (Psalms 91:1) I cannot think of a better place to abide than in the shadow of the Almighty. I long for safety and shelter and I can be sure to find it there. More than that, it is my rightful place. What if a bobcat tried to move into the fox den. Mama fox would make short work of it because the den is not its rightful place. I don’t have to creep into the presence of God as if I am afraid someone will spot me.
Not
only is God’s presence a place of safety and shelter, but it is a place of
power and provision. Jesus tells his disciples, “If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you
wish, and it will be done for you. John 15:7” If we are remaining in a fixed
and stable state in Jesus and hiding his word in our heart ( Psalms 119:11) we have a flow of blessings in him.
Abiding is not common in our culture. We are taught to strive, to work harder, to be self-made women and men. May we have the courage it takes this week to learn to be still and abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
Wednesday, April 20, 2022
Just Sit
Just Sit
Be still
and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the heavens and exalted in the
earth. Psalms 46:10
The
other day, I came home from a long day at work. The dog was glad to see me. He
had a list for me since I had been gone. We went out for a walk and he took
care of all the necessary duties. We came in and he got his treats. I left out
the one that stays in the refrigerator and he informed me that I had forgotten
it. We played fetch and he ate some. I figured we were done since all the boxes
had been checked, so I sat down with my book. He would be still for a few
minutes and then let out one loud sharp bark. This went on for several minutes
and finally I told him I was out of ideas. As a last option, I sat down beside
him on the floor. He wagged his tail and put his head down. That was all he wanted – for me to be with
him.
In our
Christian walk, we look to God for what we need. This is a good thing and He
loves to bless us. He tells us to trust him and says that we do not have
because we do not ask. (James 4). We depend on him for salvation, for our daily
bread and our healing. There is a piece that is often missing, though. We do
not take enough time to just sit and be with Him. Like Martha in the Bible we
get so busy serving Him that we do not take time to sit at his feet. Jesus died
to bridge the gap between us and a holy God so we could have fellowship. We
need to take advantage of that gift of fellowship.
A verse
that I love/hate is Psalms 46:10 – Be still and know that I am God. I will be
exalted among the heavens and exalted in the earth.
Psalms 84
has a beautiful description of spending
time in God’s presence.
How lovely is your dwelling place,
Lord Almighty!
2 My
soul yearns, even faints,
for the courts of the Lord;
my heart and my flesh cry out
for the living God.
3 Even
the sparrow has found a home,
and the swallow a nest for herself,
where she may have her young—
a place near your altar,
Lord Almighty, my King and
my God.
4 Blessed
are those who dwell in your house;
they are ever praising you.
I have not always done well at sitting in God’s
presence, but I want to do it more. I need the restoration and healing that
comes from it. May we have the courage to step away from our busy stressful
life and spend time with the God who gave Himself up for us.
Wednesday, January 19, 2022
Because I Said So
Because I Said So
My ways are not your ways nor are my thoughts your thoughts. As the heavens are higher than the earth so are my thoughts higher than your thoughts and my ways than your ways.” (Isaiah 55:8-9)
It is the cry of the four year old. Why? Why? Why? Why is the sky blue? Why do I have to brush my teeth? Why do I have to go to school? My uncle called on one of those days and asked what I was doing. I said, “I’ve answered a thousand questions today.” He said, “You wanted an intelligent child and now you have one.” Parents try to keep up for a while, but usually it deteriorates to the point where the frustrated parent says, “BECAUSE I SAID SO!”
God is sovereign. He tells us in Isaiah 55, “my ways are not your ways nor are my thoughts your thoughts. As the heavens are higher than the earth so are my thoughts higher than your thoughts and my ways than your ways.” It is tempting to ask God why things happened. Why did my family member die? Why did someone attack innocent people? Many times we don’t get an answer.
Job questioned God when he was hurting and broken. Here is what God said to him.
38 Then the Lord answered
Job from the whirlwind and said,
2 “Who is this who darkens the divine plan
By words without knowledge?
3 Now [a]tighten
the belt on your waist like a man, And I shall ask you, and you
inform Me!
4 Where
were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell Me,
if you [b]have
understanding,
5 Who
set its measurements? Since you know. Or who stretched the
measuring line over it?
6 On
what were its bases sunk? Or who laid its cornerstone,
7 When
the morning stars sang together And all the sons of God shouted for
joy?
8 “Or who enclosed the sea with doors When
it went out from the womb, bursting forth;
9 When
I made a cloud its garment, And thick darkness its swaddling bands,
10 And
I [c]placed
boundaries on it And set a bolt and doors,
11 And
I said, ‘As far as this point you shall come, but no farther;
And here your proud waves shall stop’?
For several chapters God continues. All the marvels of creation
exist “because He said so.”
Sovereignty is not a concept we understand in our culture. We are
used to getting our way and getting it when we want it. God gets to have the
final say because he created everything, He sustains everything and he redeemed
everything.
When you don’t get an answer or don’t get the answer you want, you
can trust God. Anything that happens to you is in his hand and you will be
taken care of, because He said so.
Wednesday, November 10, 2021
Redeemed
Welcome back to guest blogger Samantha LaPierre. Read on to see what she has learned about God Redeeming the wreckage of the past.
I keep starting and stopping searching for words that are not there to express things that vanish the moment you try to pin them down. They seem so sacred that to capture them would be nearly irreverent and blasphemous. Some moments, it seems, belong only to the moment in which they were birthed and are buried before the next. Bursts and flashes of creation are complete in themselves. How could I express that?
Sometimes I could sit and breathe and bask in the nothingness, the dreaming that occurs as it dwells in all of the possibility that the void contains. I can hold this space just briefly to quiet the chattering in my mid. The silence takes the roots of these and turns over earth inside my soul, so that I can grow something beautiful. I can create something I never could have on my own. I can feel my chest begin to calm. A feeling like a raging hurricane suddenly stopped.
At first I felt like I had died, like the lack of conflict was death, not peace. I was used to just surviving, getting by using anxiety as the source I used to me forward. To let myself take the weighted responsibility of owning my life would mean I would have to step into the authority of my own power. Actually it was not my own power, but the power entrusted to me by God by the Holy Spirit. I didn’t know how to claim it. I had nothing but failed attempts, a dysfunctional emotional body and a lack of guidance. I had no one to teach me who to be whole, but I quickly taught myself to be broken and bitter. I can’t pinpoint or understand how or when the depth of my soul surrendered to the surface all the treasures that I had assumed were lost forever. Lost when my vessel was tossed and wrecked time and time again, breaking and sinking like the pearl of the grace that came with a great cost. God has called these treasures out of their grave. He came walking on the water to help me see their beauty and unseen worth. He said to me, “these are the treasures you take with you from this life to the next.
As I wrote this these pictures played on the screen in my mind.
A pretty new ship setting off as dark clouds rolled in. As it set sail, it passed the safe zone and violent waves and winds capsized it, breaking it into splinters.
Another boat, not so new sits hesitant to leave. It didn’t sail long and was abandoned with its cargo. The captain and crew decided they would rather take their chances and float. Over and over this story replayed and no one dived to reclaim what was lost.
Then the ocean floor began to shift. The tides and currents changed and the surface was hit by a tsunami. The ocean became an empty grave. I could see Him jump in the water and lift me out - resuscitating me and reviving my heart. I coughed cried and sputtered to take the next breath on my own. He wiped my eyes and my face. Then he lifted me to my feet and we were standing on the water together. He picks up stones, treasures and a bluepring. No. It is a complete pardon. 4 beautiful words. All has been forgiven.
I see a trunk full of books that don’t have words yet. “Write” he said without saying. “These are the tablets of your heart. He shows me a gold heart shaped locket with a mustard seed in one side and “to thine own self be true, on the other. I can’t help but smile. He had faith in me the whole time. At the end of this I come back to myself and I want to dance and cry and tell everyone about the way, in just a moment, God could reveal Himself to me. I don’t need to be spectacular. I only need to make myself be still long enough to release what it is in my mind
Thursday, May 6, 2021
Tapestry
Bear ye one another’s burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ. Galatians 6:2
When I was a teenager, we spent time on the Navajo Reservation in Kinlichee, Arizona. We were sponsoring a vacation Bible School and gospel meeting. The Indian women made us fry bread, beans and stew and we ate under a brush arbor that we watched the men build. A quarter mile from where we camped was the chapter house. It was a combination office, shower facility and gift shop. The shop had beautiful crafts, including dolls and jewelry. My favorite thing was the handmade rugs. They were woven on traditional looms. Yarn was strung vertically on the loom and then passed over one thread and under the next. At the end of each row the yarn was pressed down to tighten the weave. The bright colored yarn made intricate patterns and the rugs were strong and durable.
In the strange and uncertain times we live in, Christians need each other. When we are in fellowship our lives are woven together. Our different gifts and experiences, when they are combined, make a beautiful tapestry of God’s grace and increase the strength of each individual. We are much less vulnerable to outside attacks.
Ecclesiastes 4 9-12 says this.
Two are better than one,
because they have a good return for their labor:
10 If either of them falls down,
one can help the other up.
But pity anyone who falls
and has no one to help them up.
11 Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm.
But how can one keep warm alone?
12 Though one may be overpowered,
two can defend themselves.
A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.
In Galatians 6:2, Paul encourages us to bear one another’s burdens, and in First Corinthians 12 he describes the way we are many members but form one body with Christ being the head.
Many other verses discuss the idea of the importance of fellowship and love. Not only does it benefit us, but also glorifies God and sets an example for those outside the fellowship.
You are a treasured part of the tapestry of my life. Your love and strength make me a better me. I am so glad, my beautiful sister, that my life is woven with yours.
Thursday, January 21, 2021
Tuesday, December 8, 2020
Friday, October 30, 2020
Just Rest Your Eyes
For thus said the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel, “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.” ( Isaiah 30:15)
Bedtime in my house has always been a challenging time. I wish I had a quarter for every time I said, “You don’t have to go to sleep. Just rest your eyes.” My older child would go just as fast as he could and make as much noise as possible to avoid having to go to sleep. We would have “be-still-a-thons”. The winner was the one who could be still and quiet the longest. My younger child was very quiet in school but saved up all his words until bedtime when he let loose. One night he said, “Mama, I can’t go to sleep.” I said, “That’s because your eyes are open and your mouth is moving.” He closed his eyes and said, “Hmm Hmm Hmmmm, Hmm Hmm.” Even the dog doesn’t like bedtime. He stays home with my husband all day and they nap so when I get home he is rested and ready to go. The other night he would wait until I got still and then moan, bark or paw at me. Finally my husband took him into the man cave and closed the bedroom door. After a little bit we let him back in. He acted like he was going to be quiet and then started woofing. My husband started to pick him up and take him out again and in a flash he jumped up next to my shoulder and gave us an innocent look. People wonder why I look tired.
The truth is I am tired in more ways than just physical. I carry emotional and spiritual burdens that are not necessary. I know that the word says, “Cast your cares on Him for He cares for you. (1 Pet 5:7)” I know, but I was raised with the belief that I should “Pray like everything depends on God and then work like everything depends on you.” The other day God showed me an image. I was on an escalator and even though it was going, I was running as fast as I could to get to the top. That is a very accurate description of how I operate. I pray that God will meet a need and then search high and low for a local resource that will meet it. I stay up trying to come up with alternate solutions, alternating with the serenity prayer.
When I looked up scriptures on rest, I found 766. Apparently God is serious about resting in him. The first references are about God resting on the 7th day and remembering the Sabbath. I won’t share all 766 but here are few of the ones that spoke to me.
Isaiah 30:15 For thus said the Lord GOD, the Holy One of Israel, “In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength.”
Matthew 11:28-30 Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
Psalm 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”
Jeremiah 31:25 For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish.
Exodus 14:14
The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be still.”
I believe that lack of rest, whether physical, emotional or spiritual is a huge problem for many of us. There are so many concerns right now. I encourage you to do your own search for scriptures about rest and peace and feed your soul with them this week.
Thursday, September 24, 2020
keep your balance
Tuesday, July 28, 2020
It's not easy being green.
My thumb is not bright green, but I am learning more gardening skills. I am trying to figure out what plants like how much sun and how much water. One thing I noticed is that a plant that was in a pot last year showed up in a spot where I didn't plant it. I have seen this a couple of times. One year a tomato plant grew up volunteer out of my mom's compost pile. Those were the biggest sweetest tomatoes I ever had. My gardening friends say that the wind ( which we have lots of here in West Texas) water, or animals can transfer seeds to other places.
I have seen this in my life, too. During both the lock-down and my grief journey, things have been hard, but I have seen blessings from unexpected sources. One time a stranger put gas in my car for me when I was scraping the bottom of the barrel for change waiting for my paycheck to come in. "random people" stepped up to help us on our road trip to the funeral. People have called me "out of the blue" too let me know they are thinking about me.This past week I was very sick with shingles. I had friends that brought me supper, hot tea and ginger ale, friends who brought me vitamins and pain killers and friends who prayed for me. I asked God why they helped me when I had not done anything for them. The verse that came to mind was Galatians 6:7-9.
Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, this he will also reap. For the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption, but the one who sows to the Spirit will from the Spirit reap eternal life. Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.
For some reason, I had always seen this in a negative light. If you do bad things you will get bad things in return. I had never realized that when I have poured into someone's life, I may reap from an entirely different place. I am sometimes so tempted to "lose heart in doing good". One of my biggest temptations is the voice that says "That's not enough to make any difference."
Another verse that expresses the same thought in a different way is Ecclesiastes 11:1 "Cast your bread upon the waters and you will find it again after many days." When we do godd to others because God has been good to us, we will receive a reward. Like the plants that come up volunteer where they were not planted, our reward may not come in the way we expect, but it will come.
Psalms 1:1-4 says, "Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers, but whose delight is in the law of the Lord, and who meditates on his law day and night. That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. whatever they do prospers. Not so the wicked. They are like chaff that the wind blows away.
If we are walking with God and taking delight in his law, He can bless us from any source He desires. as we read in psalms 50:10, He owns the cattle on a thousand hills."
More now than ever, the world needs Jesus and it needs the church. Ask God to show you where to sow and how you are reaping.
Ecclesiastes 11:1 says "cast your bread upon the waters, and you will find it again after many days. This is true of giving and it is also true of work we do for the kingdom.